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| Tuesday, September 29th, 2009 | | 11:38 am |
Whenever I call you friend...
Just remembering what life's all about. Good times, good friends and good shit. Current Mood:  busyCurrent Music: Whenever I call you Friend, Mellisa manchester | | Tuesday, August 18th, 2009 | | 9:03 pm |
Death of Pochi the tanuki
Let me tell you a story. A couple of years ago, someone in Japan was walking through the a park near his home. We'll call him Siroboshi. He heard the sound of a small creature crying for food. He found a small tanuki cub in the tall, unkempt grass. He searched the park for its parents, but could not find a trace of them. Siroboshi resolved that someone had to care for the little tanuki. He picked the small one up and carried him home. Weak from crying and lack of food, the tanuki did not struggle. He named the tanuki Pochi, which is a common name for a pooch in Japan. Siroboshi got a lot of joy from Pochi, and used his video camera to keep track of their time together. He shared the videos he made with the world, putting them up on a popular sharing site. it was a rare opportunity for people to see how a tanuki really acts. Pochi became very sick, and was unable to keep anything down. He lost weight rapidly, and was soon not able to stand without collapsing. While doctors tried to make him well, and gave him nutrients and medicine, he soon passed away. The time that Siroboshi and Pochi had together was short, but precious. From those of us who watched your videos and loved them, Pochi, you will be missed. From those of us who feel close to tanuki, you will never really be gone. Thank you. | | Friday, August 14th, 2009 | | 5:44 pm |
What the Health?
Hey, a video blogger I happen to watch posted a video stating that he didn't really know what Obama was trying to reform in Health Care. I've embedded the video in case anyone is curious. If any of my friends don't know what the proposal is, I found this on Barak Obama's Website: http://www.barackobama.com/pdf/issues/HealthCareFullPlan.pdfThe debate as I understand it is between this hurting capitalism and people actually being able to consistently get health care. There's also some concern that it will cost way too much to do. There's also lots of things being tossed around about this. That it will hurt doctors and patients and force them into not being able to choose what doctor they can go to. Doctors will be forced to move into areas where there are no doctors and...well, the list goes on. No one seems to be really clear on how this will happen. You can probably guess my opinion. Current Mood:  hyper | | Tuesday, November 11th, 2008 | | 1:46 pm |
| | Friday, November 7th, 2008 | | 9:57 am |
California Election: Uncounted votes
Hello All, Please keep in mind that the california election isn't over yet. There is a document that is being updated as information comes in. You can see the county reports of how many votes have not been tallied yet: http://www.sos.ca.gov/elections/c-status08/total_unprocessed_ballots08.pdfThere were 3,777,094 vote-by-mail ballots issued. There are 9,068,415 ballots cast. 41.65% of the vote: http://www.sos.ca.gov/elections/hist_absentee.htmAs of this posting, there are 2,361,148 untallied ballots reported/estimated. This includes the mail-ins, ballots that are damaged or that could not be machine read and need to be remade, ballots diverted by optical scanners for further review, and provisional votes that need their signatures to be verified. While the mail-in vote has trended towards conservative in the past, there have been theories tossed around by news agencies that this election will see a lot of new voters mailing in. These new voters may lean towards the progressive. This is just a theory, however. There is no demographic to support it. There is still a long way to go. These votes have 28 days from Nov 4th to be tallied. Many have given up on the vote and have moved on to other means of fighting for what they think is right. Supporting this is important. We can only hope for the best. --Zackkly Current Mood:  thoughtful | | Friday, February 3rd, 2006 | | 12:22 am |
The White Rabbit
I've actually wanted to post for some time now, but I managed to forget my password in a very serious way, and didn't have any validated e-mail address attached to this account. All the old ones were inactive. I've been thinking about the meaning of the concept of "The White Rabbit". This idea began, as you probably know, with Lewis Carroll's "Alice in Wonderland." Alice sees this white rabbit with a pocket watch wearing a waistcoat, and promptly follows him down a hole into his world. Since, the idea has expanded and expounded into a variety of strange and interesting concepts of what the white rabbit IS. What does it mean, to chase the white rabbit? What of the drug culture reference? Where does the psychology lie? I thought it would be a good idea to post the thought here, and ask, "What does the White Rabbit mean to you?" | | Monday, September 12th, 2005 | | 9:40 am |
Journals.
Reading the posts of others, I am ASTOUNDED by what others write. Again, I have issues 'cuz I'm paranoid about what people think about what I write. (I can't tell you how crazy THIS post is making me.) Still, I am quite surprised that people write some of the things they write. All the little details and such. Makes me want to grab it and copy-edit it: leave out a word, get rid of this paragraph, so on. People write about, like, the little stuff. They write about going to the store and getting stuff where no incident occurs, tell you all about what they buy, all this junk. Different things are therapeutic to the person(S) in question, of course... Still, I can't help thinking what a wise mouse once said: "If the sun is up, it's up! Who wants to read about it?" | | Friday, September 9th, 2005 | | 1:34 am |
New Orleans
...Okay, I'm STILL up 'cuz I HAD to read some posts, now that I posted something myself. People are talking about New Orleans. And well they should. I haven't taken the time to read all this stuff and reply and such. I don't watch the news (a crime, I know) and get my information through the filter of those around me. seamusyote does a very good job of this. I am, however, acutely aware that just about all the rest of the world DOES pay attention to the news. So, this I put to you, oh people of the eastern seaboard who happen to read my journal. New Orleans has been going through hell. A lot of it. People have commented, thrown sarcasm, made photoshop images and spent plenty and plenty of time on live journal yakking about it. Has a single one of you gone through direct effort to help these people? Many of you have tech jobs, or other similar. Many of you have money or equipment you are not putting to use. Many of you have vacation time. Many of you are perhaps a day's drive away, perhaps two. Did any of you load up your car with food and water and drive down there with it? While these people were starving, dying of thirst, did any of you get up with your friends and figure out what you can do? Have you donated to any of the funds or what have you? I've done nothing. I feel stupid and helpless. I don't want that. These people deserve better. If I were them, I would want better. New Orleans was a landmark. It was a special place. There should have been not a one of us willing to let its people go hungry, even for a day. While we live like kings up here in our castles, our lofty apartments or sprawling houses...the people of that special place have to stare at the bodies of those they called neighbor. I want to give myself an excuse, but I have none. I feel sick. Current Mood:  nauseated | | 12:59 am |
Posting. Clean slate.
I have recently noticed that I *do*, in fact, have a live journal account. This may come as a shock to you all, but I haven't posted a single (public) entry since August 22nd, 2004. I decided to ask myself a simple question: Why have I not posted anything in over a year? Because I feel I have nothing valuable to say. Or at least no way to say it. Certainly, I have thoughts that I think are significant. I even dream of being a proliferate writer and artist. What am I going to write about? My day? My days are pretty much like every other day. Things happen, I get excited, things don't happen, I get disappointed. I think of myself as being very straightforward, and trying to write what's going on when you're very straightforward can be very difficult. It all comes out--to be blunt--boring. I say more or less the same things. I like eating. I love my boyfriend. Work sucks. People make no sense. Straightforward. I say how I'm feeling. But being straightforward doesn't get me what I want. I want...attention. Praise. Friendship. I expect that I can tell people exactly what I want and expect from them, and they'll give it to me. I tell them that I like them and they'll like me back because people like to be liked. Things don't really work that way. The realization came to me at work today, in fact. I have a co-worker who is doing things outside of the company procedure, which creates more work for him and for everyone around him. He is attempting to shift a responsibility off the shoulders of the team and put it on the individuals. This particular responsibility is not something within the power of the individuals to handle on their own, and he proves this time and time again by not completing his tasks. I decide that this needs to be explained to him. Why? I don't ask myself this question, and it becomes increasingly clear that I should. I don't attempt to even have a conversation about it. I tell him the policy, I explain to him why it works the way it does, and he continues to insist that he is right. Why am I doing this? What can be gained by my doing this? I know that he believes that he is right. I knew that from the start. Why else would he be doing what he is doing? Do I think I am going to convince him otherwise? No, of course not. I actually *do* know that you can't really argue someone out of something. People believe that they are right and it's a rare one that listens to what I might call 'reason'. So, I can't say I really want him to think I'm right. What I want is for him to follow the procedure and make life easier on me. On everyone else, also, of course. I admit that's secondary. Being direct is not getting me what I want. What I should be doing is using my power as a newly promoted employee to pool resources with my other supervisors and make it mandatory that ALL employees follow the procedure in this case. Help set up expectations and goals, put effort into seeing things run smoothly. I am the first solution to my own problem. I can make things better. For everyone. This is what I want. I can feel good knowing that people are having an easier time of their work, and that I myself will have more space to pursue my more ambitious projects. The little neurotic works that give me my own private joys. Everyone wins. I'll also have something to write about. Current Mood:  crazyCurrent Music: How can I play music and type at the same time? | | Friday, June 25th, 2004 | | 12:53 am |
You know, it's not just that I expect people *can* change. I expect that they *will* change...that they are capable of changing and will simply do so...but this is not consistantly true. What I do or say or think has little effect on this property. So, when I think someone is being abusive towards me...I just get mad, because a (probably subconscious) part of my brain thinks that my anger will will cause or be a catalyst to cause someone to change and not do that anymore. This is even less consistantly true. I want those I love to be who they are..but if who they are is someone who doesn't respect me, how can I live with that? I grew up hearing from my father that I was intellegent, attractive and worth something. I know not a lot of the people around me had that...but I don't think about it very often. I think of everyone I love like that...like that's what they are, and that they surely must know it and have been told so many times. I think that's why I'm aggressive with them. I don't want them to attack me, I just want them to prove me right...and for them to think the same of me, so I can prove them right. | | Monday, June 21st, 2004 | | 7:24 pm |
AAAAARRRRGh!
God DAMN it, America! Apostrophies are NOT meant to be used to indicate plurals! Only plural *posessives*! (ie: "the club members' shirts") (plural: "the club memebers" posessive: "the club member's shirt.") | | Friday, June 4th, 2004 | | 1:18 am |
..okay
How is it that the majority of the fandom is composed of canids, canines, equites and boviines? Esp. Foxes, Wolves, Horses and bulls. Is it too much to ask to have more variety? I have only seen TWO people play porcupines, and I've NEVER seen a beaver or a platypus out there. *grumblegrumble* Also...why do so many taurs end up being HERM taurs? I mean, I'm not really OPPOSED to herms, but dammit...I just want a taur who's a taur, without any other unusual stuff, for once. I don't know. Maybe I'm just...crazy. Current Mood:  confused | | Tuesday, May 11th, 2004 | | 11:20 pm |
Get it? Got it? Good.
I don't write very often, and it's usually only when I feel like speaking my mind or being opinionated. Kinda like a shout at the world what I think. Makes me look a little more pushy than I usually try to be. I was just reading some stroies with adult content off the net. Many of them have men that are muscled and perfectly sculpted and 'beautiful'. I actually prefer chubby, myself, so it's sometimes more difficult for me to wade through. However, reading the writing style of these stories, I'm starting to also realize that a lot of these 'beautiful' characters have some real self-confidence issues that are really subtle to pick up in the writing style. However, just about every story involving chubs being promoted as very attractive doesn't seem to have this issue. The characters seem genuinely happy...and that they'd be gorgeous no matter what the shape of thier body. It makes me think about all the 'beautiful' people I know, who seem so sad on the inside... and the people who aren't, who are jealous of what they have. The grass is always greener, y'know? I guess it's true. Life's really not about getting what you want. It's about wanting what you've got. --ZLR | | Tuesday, April 13th, 2004 | | 2:44 am |
Thoughs, late at night
I sometimes wonder if I'm right. If my way of looking at th ings is right. I sort of think the whole world's gone mad, and I've found sanity and a true path. I know where I am, I know what I am. I know the direction I'm headed in and I like it... but does that mean I'm right? Is it even a matter of right and wrong? I think I can say that everyone has thier own perceptions of those concepts, and that's what makes the differences in all of us. Or it's one of the things. Do I have the right to say if something is not right in someone's life? Do I have the right to interject and tell them what to do? Do I have the right to judge the way people around me react? Am I as much the voice of experience as I think I am? I doubt. I don't know the answer to these questions. Hell, I don't even know if I'm *doing* any of this right now, for sure. Maybe I'm just being philosophical because of my brain chemistry right now. Damn increased testosterone. Current Mood:  listless | | Sunday, March 7th, 2004 | | 1:11 am |
Arg.
Yes, I am aware that most of the posts I put up here are angsty...but darnit, pain makes me want to write. I feel a need to broadcast that I am PISSED OFF that my boyfriend is living with a roommate who has established the rule that I can't come over to the house. Dingo is currently sick to some degree, and I don't have access to him. It makes me feel helpless and hurt. Current Mood:  grumpy | | Saturday, March 6th, 2004 | | 3:04 am |
Listen.
I've decided to write a little entry on something that a friend of mine reminded me of, indirectly. It's about listening, and something I've observed in several people over the past few years that seems to lead to an amazing breakdown in communication. Here's an example. Person #1: I'm hungry. We should get something to eat. Person #2: I like bagels. Person #1: I don't want to go get any bagels. Besides, Bagel Shops are too expensive Person #2: Well, I'm not really in the mood to go out and do anything like that, either. Person #1: Then why were you saying you wanted to? This is something I call 'listening with your mouth instead of your ears'. Now, this is a rather simplified example. Yes, it could be taken to mean that person #2 wants to go get bagels to eat...but it could also mean that person #2 is wondering if there are bagels around somewhere, or contemplating a recipie to make bagels, and so on and so forth. Person #1 is thinking only about what Person #1 said, not about what the other person said. Instead of responding to what Person #2 is thinking about and expanding the conversation into bagels in some way ("I like them, too" "I don't like bagels at all, actually." "I don't think there are any in the house." "I wonder how they're made.") Person #1is responding to an internal conflict created by themselves. I call this listening wtih your mouth because you're creating things from what the other person has said with the things you're saying yourself. This can also be carried on to the degree of someone who is rambling on and on without actually listening to what someone else is trying to contribute to thier ramblings. Usually, a rambling or rant will go on for some time, with the listener trying to provide an opposing view on occasional point. Instead of this being absorbed, it gets taken by the rambler and twisted while they're talking into something entirely different. This can sometimes be the 'fault' of the opposing speaker, if they're trying to steer the rambler off-topic abruptly. Some of this might be too specific or vague to give proper examples of, but I hope some of the meaning is conveyed. And no, this isn't directed at anyone in particular, it was just something that popped up in my head. Current Mood: tired | | Saturday, February 28th, 2004 | | 2:23 pm |
Mmm.
"It's okay to feel like you're only around until something beter comes along, because everyone's here until something better comes along. And hey, mabye that something better will be hte one who you're wih.' I think thats' said right. Current Mood: contemplative | | Friday, February 20th, 2004 | | 3:55 am |
Arrruggghglllugh.
It seems like a lot of the people I'm interacting with take thier comittments very lightly. It drives me CRAZY. I just had a very dissatisfying interaction with someone. I won't go into the adult-oriented details here in my LJ, but I WILL say that it seriously PISSED ME OFF. But no, it didn't ruin my evening. The only one capaple of that is me, thank you very much. Current Mood: grumpy | | Tuesday, January 27th, 2004 | | 1:05 am |
Whew.
That was a really great con. Even though I'm local to FC, I got a room. To myself. Man, that's just so awesome. No roomies, no stress and a nice, private place for me to hide or chill when I need to. I also managed to set up relations with someone I've been trying to get together with for around three or four years, now. It's really wonderful to have finally developed a relationship with this pariticular person (and his boyfriend!) In any case, it was a good con and WELL worth the money. I think it was honestly one of the best yet. I've never been so relaxed. | | Tuesday, January 13th, 2004 | | 11:04 am |
Life
Y'know, life's not easy...and I've done my share of complaining about it...but sometimes, things just work out so that everything goes right. I'm going to be going to FC next week. I'm really excited. Hope to see some of you there. |
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